Having a great day!!

Well, after my long hard think last night and finally realising that the only person who can change my life is me, I am pleased to say that I have had a fab day. Within my points for the first time in about 10 days. Had a great day on my course and some of us girls went for a coffee at the end and had a good natter, most of us have exchanged mobile numbers and plan to keep in contact once the course is over. The nice thing is, that a few of them are local to me so it shouldnt be too difficult to keep in contact. Feels like I am finally getting friends of my own and settling in a bit more.

Going for now but will be back tomorrow

Goodnight all

Hugz

Lou

PMA!

As of tomorrow, a new era starts and I start following weightwatchers properly and will do it this time. Wondering where this renewed enthusiasm has come from - I have been doing a confidence course as part of my course from the jobcentre and have realised that I have to have a more 'Can Do' attitude rather than 'Can't do'. The things I want to do with my life can only be achieved by one person and one person only - ME!! I keep saying I am going to lose weight, lose a little bit, give up and put some back on again and it repeats over and over again. Well, I firmly believe that something has clicked and I am ready to do it. Hoping that if I show a more confident PMA then it will rub off on my daughter as well and she will believe that she can accomplish everything she wants. Its strange because I am really buzzing with positive feelings and feel that the time is right for me to be me!!

Going now as have another big day infront of me tomorrow

Hugz

Lou

Guilty Confession!!

Hi all,

I am here tonight to confess my ww sins for this week. I have had a terrible week this week and not bothered to track or do any exercise - go alot of family problems at the moment and I just cant concentrate on anything.

At the moment, I am on a course with my local jobcentre and everyone tells me how confident I seem to be but if the truth be known, my self esteem is terrible and am feeling horrible and useless about everything and anything. I have come to realise that for me to be happy with me as a person, alot of things need to change. I feel like a scaredy cat because I really dont know what the future holds and I have never been so uncertain of anything as I feel now.

I am going to weigh-in on monday at boots and then restart my journey and stop acting like a fool. I am also going to keep a record of emotions and see if I can find any triggers and see if there are ways to control it.

Going to go now and try and relax for a bit.

Hugz

Lou

Evening All!!

Well, I had weigh-in on monday and managed to lose another 1lb!! Happy with this after having a very on and off week.

Started a course through the jobcentre this week and its great fun - great group of single parents and a laugh had by all. We had a confidence building segment today and proved to be very interesting. The other good thing about the whole thing is there is a few of us who have already decided to keep in contact once the course finishes and meet up once a week for a coffee!! Yippee, friends who know what its like and arent going to judge me.

Got a hectic weekend ahead, looking after the dog for my sister as she is having a weekend away with hubbie, Jess has a school disco on friday and then a birthday party on saturday.

All in all, things are good with her at the moment, occasional tantrums but what do I expect as she is 9 going on 16. She had a fab time at brownie camp - managed the zipwire but chickened out of abseiling - she now cant wait til the next one!! Oh, how they grow up so quick.

Will be back tomorrow, have fun til then!!!!

Lou

Back again!!

Well, I've had a couple of fab days - back on track but not getting enough exercise - hoping for a sts on monday but will just have to wait and see. My menus have been weird mainly due to not wanting to cook for 1 and my sister deciding to take me out to lunch today.

Have decided to face weigh-in on monday, take whatever happens and then get back straight on it properly. Figured I've got 2 months til my birthday so will see what I can lose by then and then my next goal will be christmas - should be able to make a significant dent as long as I stick to it properly.

See you tomorrow

Hugz

Lou

Hi all

Hiya,

Well, after a fantastic week last week - managed to lose 3lbs this week so am very pleased about. Had a really bad week this week and not kept to my points at all!! I shall be lucky if I get a bu sts this week but know what to expect so am not concerned about it. I am going to start tracking again tomorrow and try to behave.

I always whinge about my baby not going to sleep when shes supposed to, well I suddenly realised how quiet it is when shes not here - shes gone to Brownie camp for the first time this weekend. Shes going to another one in July and I never realised that I would miss her so much - mothers love for you!!

Going to start writing my menus on my blog page in an attempt to see where I am going wrong. Also going to get out and walk for an hour every day, even if its just over to the local park.

Watching 'The Devil Wears Prada' so will leave you for now and see you tomorrow

Hugz

Lou

Update time ...

Had a fabulous couple of days so far this week - stayed within points and managing to earn bonus ones as well!

On the plus side, I might have met someone - I have been talking to a young man online and we seem to be getting on really well - he keeps hinting about the next stage, we have now exchanged numbers and are seeing where it goes from there!! It feels really good to have something to look forward to.
Jessica is off to camp next weekend so I shall see what fun I can get up to whilst she is away! I will probably be stressing about it the whole time but I have to realise that they grow up and need to be doing things they enjoy!!

Hugz

Lou

Weigh-in result and general catch-up

Hello all,

As you can see - yet again I have been completely forgetting to come and update you on a regular basis!! Weightwatchers has been going rubbish at the moment but somehow I managed to lose 1lb this week - believe me I am grateful for this after the rubbish I have been eating and lack of exercise!! So far, I have lost a total of 18lbs - really need to focus on what I am meant to be doing and stop giving in to temptation.

Generally things are going well - my daughter is on her easter hols at the moment and in general is being okay apart from back chatting and thinking she knows better than everyone else!

Going to go for now but will try to remember to update regularly and try to post my menus as well, maybe that will keep me under control.

Hugz

Lou